HOW DO YOU KNOW WHEN YOU ARE IN LOVE

DOES YOUR HEART FLUTTER LIKE THE BUTTERFLYS IN YOUR TUMMY
OR DOES YOUR HEART FEEL COLD AND ALONE
YOU WOULD DO ANYTHING FOR THIS PERSON WHEN EVER AND WHERE EVER YOU WERE YOU WOULD STOP AND DO ANYTHING
BUT NOW THEY ASK YOU TO DO ANYTHING YOU TELL THEM OKAY I WILL DO IT AND YOU NEVER GET TO IT
YOUR CONVERSATIONS ARE NOT LONG AND DEEP LIKE YOU USE TO WHERE YOU WOULD SPEND HOURS ON THE PHONE JUST TALKING NONSENCE AND NOW THEY ARE SHORT AND TO THE POINT
HOW DO YOU KNOW YOU ARE STILL IN LOVE WITH THIS PERSON STILL IF HIM MENTIONING A NAME OF ANOTHER GIRL HURTS YOU STILL YOU BECOME JEALOUS BUT AT THE SAME TIME YOU JUST DONT CARE ANYMORE
HOW IS IT THAT NO MATTER WHAT HE TELLS YOU
YOU END UP FALLING FOR HIM AGAIN AND LATER ON JUST GETTING MAD AND NOT CARING
HOW DO YOU KNOW WHEN YOU ARE STILL IN LOVE WITH IS PERSON

What am i doing wrong

IT HAS BEEN A YEAR SINCE I LOGGED INTO MY BLOG


BUT I FELT LIKE WRITING SOME THINGS ABOUT WHAT I HAVE BEEN DOING SO FAR


I WENT THROUGH A REALLY BAD BREAK UP , I THOUGHT THAT THIS GUY WAS THE ONE WE HAD A CONNECTION SO I THOUGHT BUT THINGS DIDNT WORK OUT


LATER ON I MET A GUY ALMOST 10 YEARS OLDER THAN ME THROUGH MY BROTHER I ALSO THOUGHT THAT THIS PERSON WAS EVRYTHING UNTIL HE SHOWED ME HIS TRUE COLORS HE WAS SEEING THREE GIRLS AT THE TIME WHILE I WAS GIVING HIM MY ALL. I GOT PREGNANT WITH HIS CHILD HE WAS ARRESTED WHEN I WAS 2 MONTH PREGNANT JUST TO FIND OUT THAT HE WAS WITH HIS EX GIRLFRIEND AND SHE WAS 4 MONTHS PREGNANT SHE LOST HER BABY AND 2 MONTHS LATER I WAS 4 MONTHS LONG WHEN I FELT A STRANGE SENSATION AND I WAS BLEEDING THIS WAS NOT AN EASY PROCESS TO TOP IT OFF I WAS ALONE THE MAN I LOVED THE FATHER OF MY SON WAS IN JAIL AND IT WAS SOOOO STRESSFUL BUT I MANAGED TO PULL THROUGH AND I STOOD STRONG NEXT TO THIS MAN I LOVED AFTER ALL THE THINGS HE HAD DONE TO ME I WAS THERE FOR HIM


HE CAME OUT ON SEPTEMBER 26, 2017 I HAD WAITED ALMOST 6 MONTHS AND WE WERE FINNALLY TOGETHER AND HE DID NOLT LAST MORE THE 2 WEEKS BEFORE HE WAS ARRESTED AGAIN I STOOD STRONG NEXT TO HIM AND WHAT EVER HE NEEDED BUT WHY NOW THAT EVERYTHING IS OKAY I MEET SOMEONE WHO LISTENS AND CARES BUT I DO NOT FEEL THE CONNECTION TO HIM BUT CANT SEEM TO NOT HAVE HIS PRSENCE AROUND ME CAN I BE DOING WONG BY COUNTINUING THIS OR IS IT ME JUST BEING TRIED OF WAITING FOR SOMEONE WHO MIGHT NOT EVEN CHANGE NO MATTER HOW MUCH HE HAS TOLD ME THAN SHOWED ME

catching up with Life

Years pass by like you flip through pages of your favorite book.
You have some intense moments, you have some happy moments
you have some moments where you just want to scream and look up into the sky and ask your self and ask god why me? why me?
Its been years since I was on this blog but these moments that have passed in my life has opened my eyes to see what  the real world is really about ........

Quote of the day 
We must be our own
Before we can be another's
-Ralph Waldo Emerson

Quote of the day 
I hear and I forget.
I see and I remember.
I do and I understand.
Confucius

Today is Tuesday after a three day weekend

Toady is Friday....
enjoy your day and don't forget that the weekend is almost here and here is
the quote of the day